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Blog title: Mixing sex with friendship
Blog description:Sex is always complicated when it comes to friendship, but as people we often develop feelings for those closest to us. As lesbians or bisexual women, it becomes very difficult when that girl that we want is our best friend. Especially when this girl is straight, maybe bicurious. Things get interesting.
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She wants to be friends again... 280 Views 06/10/12

I previously posted a blog about everything that was going on with my friend Emily and I.  Well I had basically stopped being friends with her because of everything that she put me through.  She has been the best and the worst friend that I have ever had.  I guess it is true that "you can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness."  She makes me feel like shit and yet I still can't seem to get over her.  I've spent years trying to get over her and crying over the loss of mostly our friendship, and I finally was done with her after she figuritively kicked me when I was at my lowest this winter.  I picked myself back up and with the help of all of my other friends I was able to finally be happy and I am happy.

 

Towards the end of May, my college has a spring concert and it's a huge party weekend.  I did not plan on inviting her, I wasn't frieneds with her, and I hadn't spoken to her in months.  However, my friend Dave invited her and Chris to my school.  Dave no longer was living at school because he was student teaching at home, but he was still considered a student and could get a guest ticket for Chris.  This meant that I had to get the other ticket for Emily and I really wanted to say no. So I asked my other friends from home, and since no one else could come I reluctantly agreed to have them come and stay in my room.  I had little hope for a friendship starting back up with Emily, but I knew given our history that we probably would make up.  I KNOW!!!! I should have said no and I should have thrown her out of my life!!!  But I wanted her so badly, and I missed our friendship so much.

So far its been pretty good, we have decided not to let Chris and Dave decide our friendship.  She knows that I'll always have feelings for her, but I need to not let her interfere with my relationships.  I deserve to be happy, and if she is going to stay with Chris and get married then she needs to let me move on. I think that as long as I keep my feelings from getting the best of me, she can't hurt me the way she did.  Read my other blog, and then maybe does anyone have any advice on what they would do in my situation. :)

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A story of love and loss 200 Views 01/11/12
When I was 17 years old I met my best friend, Chris's new girl friend Emily. (Now I know what you're probably thinking but just read on). I'm a shy person so I was very self conscious upon meeting her, I didn't want her to make fun of me or to think I was weird. After a few months we started to try hanging out without our other friends. I helped teach Emily how to skateboard, not do tricks or anything but just to skateboard around in the street. As a group there were four of us (Me, Chris, Emily, and Dave). Chris wasn't allowed to have girls sleep over at his grandmas, so his girl friend had to sleep at my house. We would watch movies and kind of try to talk but it was months before I could really be open with her and consider her a friend. One night she was kind of drunk and we were laying down to sleep. I didn't have a bra on and Emily just laid on top of me and said "is it okay if we cuddle?" I felt weird about it but I said yeah and she rested her head on top of my chest and fell asleep. After that we started shopping together and having more and more sleep overs. Every time Emily slept over, we would cuddle and every time I liked it more and more. Eventually I felt like I wanted more than just to be friends with her but I never said anything because I didn't want it to end. I found myself trying to freeze time in the moment where she would lay on me, and I just held her and she looked so happy. I just wanted to make her happy like that forever. That was when I knew I loved her, and that it didn't matter that she was a girl. I still said nothing because she was straight (then again so was I up until that point). She was my friends girl friend, but she became my best friend, and she made me so happy. A whole year and a half went by like this, we became so close. I was scared, I didn't want her to be freaked out if she found out that I wanted to be with her. I had to tell her. So I did, I told her that I couldn't help my feelings but that I was in love with her. She said that it was okay and that she would still be my friend even though she wasn't into me like that. Everything continued except now she would flirt with me when we were drunk or high, and she would tell me that if she was ever to hook up with a girl it would be me. This confused me because before she said that she just wanted to be friends. But she kept inviting me over for scary movies and to cuddle and drink wine. She invited me to her family birthday party in September of my Freshmen year of College, and Chris couldn't come because of work. When her family left, she attacked me. She wrestled me onto the bed and then she took out her vibrator jokingly, but she would not let go of me and I couldn't move! She started tickling me and then she was about to stick the vibrator down my pants and I managed to get on top of her and stop her. I wished that I had not stopped her, I wanted it so badly but I didn't want to hurt our friendship. I went away to school a month after that, and that was when everything changed. She was depressed a lot and cut herself and she used to text me like 2 and 3 am that she was going to kill herself. I was worried a lot. She was opening up to me more and more about everything and I didn't wanna know most of it but I listened and I didn't tell anyone about any of it. No one knew that I was up crying all night not knowing whether my friend was alive or dead. No one, not even our friend Dave, who also went to college with me. He had no idea that she was even depressed. He was however, paranoid and jealous that something was going on between me and Emily. He was best friends with Chris and I had become best friends with Emily. That's just how it worked out. But when I eventually came out to everyone, they saw it. They knew that either I liked Emily or that she liked me or that something was going on between us. NOTHING was going on REALLY, at least we weren't having sex like I WANTED to. Anyway, Dave got paranoid that I was hooking up with Chris' girl firned and so he went on my myspace and read a message from her. This message was a huge mistake for him to have read. It wasn't about me hooking up with her, it was about Emily's life, everything in it that made her so depressed. And with that he ruined it. He made her hate me, he made her think that I flat out told him her secret. She wouldn't listen to me that he went through my shit. In her eyes, it was my fault for not deleting the message before Emily lost all trust in me 4 years ago, and has continued to make my life feel like hell ever since. I had been kind of with this girl, Megan. I had only dated her for 3 months and then I broke up with her in September but then we continued to talk and hook up. When I came home for Thanksgiving, Chris invited me over to drink. We were drunk and running around and Emily pulled me under the dining table. "shhh! let's hide from Dave and Chris!" so we hid jokingly because one time we hid under Dave's dorm room bed and instead of him coming in, his roommate did and it was really funny. So we hid under the table and no one came for a while so she looked into my eyes and took the alcohol whipped cream and said let's do body shots. this is when the conversation happened. me(pointing at her): "YOU!!!!!" Emily: "what?" me: "You are such a fucking lesbian when you're drunk!" Emily: "I KNOW!" me: "but REALLY, you're a lesbian you're always hitting on me and flirting with me." Emily: "I KNOW!" So we decided then and there that we wanted to make out by the end of the night. but we also knew that Chris would get mean about it and say she cheated on him with me. When we went upstairs to find the guys they were sitting on Chris's bed. We sat down and the conversation came up, the guys wanted the girls to make out. (for once!!!! seriously this never happened before) I was excited. "Well we cant do anything unless the guys do first, I don't want there to be drama after about it and saying it's cheating."- Emly So the guys started making out hard core! And she pulled me over to her and she kissed me. It was the most passionate kiss of my life! and I've made out with around 40 people give or take drunk nights. She was just so aggressive and in all the right ways, and she bit my lip and I didn't want it to end. Then we looked over and the guys were on each other. A dick came out and went into the other's mouth. (shit!!!!! we said we would do anything the guys did... and I was still a virgin when it came to girls. I was saving myself for the right girl. What went through my mind is... this is the right girl. Emily was ALWAYS the right girl.) We started to kiss each other a little bit and then we went down on each other after I convinced her finally to take her clothes off, she was embarrassed because she also had never been with a girl. Then it became an orgy and everyone was all over everyone. whole time all I could think about was how much I wanted it to be just me and Emily. 2 days later, Emily and Chris got engaged. She has not considered me a friend since Thanksgiving. She told me that the whole time we knew each other, she just pretended to be my friend. What do you think? With everything in here it looks to me that we were good friends. I know it's time to let go of her, I already have but in a way I hate these memories because they make the present hurt so much.
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