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Posted on Sun, Feb 02, 2014 13:05

It has taken 65 years to finally realize that I want to live as a lesbian both mentally and physically. I want to allow myself to accept that I have always been a lesbian. I knew that but denied it. I didn't want to embarass family and friends by having a girlfriend. I want to know when I look in that mirror that a lesbian is looking back at me. The same girl who always wanted women passionately....that's still her in the mirror today.

 

I was in love with my best friend in high school but only made love to her once. She didn't like it. She didn't want to ever do anything like that again. So I loved her privately and went back to a platonic relationship. But I ached to kiss her and hold her in my arms again. We had our only lovemaking when I was 14 and she was 12. I started making out with her in my room and it went from sweet kisses and touching to hot. It was her first orgasm and she was frightened by the sensation. I just wanted to hold her and tell her I loved her. We only had one deep loving kiss and I've never forgotten it. I don't think she even remembers. I'll always remember.

 

Now, after all these years in the closet to myself as much as to others, I just want to have a woman who will hold me at night and kiss me with passion. I want that love I've always looked for in the wrong place. I was always lesbian and tried to tell myself I wasn't. I said I was probably just bi. No I wasn't. Men never gave me an orgasm. Not once. I made love to 3 other women in the last 10 years and I had an orgasm with all of them, great orgasms. I look at women and find my eyes wandering over their bodies. I flirt a little with cute girls. I just wait for the one who will flirt back.

 

It's a good feeling to finally know in my heart that I'm lesbian.



The exposed lesbian

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Posted on Thu, Dec 03, 2015 12:45

I can relate to your story... I always dated guys, but only had "relations" after I got married, mainly because it was expected of me to get married and have kids. My kids and grandchildren are a treasure, but the marriage wasn't all it should've been and after 24yrs, we parted and he left with someone who could give him more. I still denied my sexuality, mainly because of my mother and children and because it still wasn't as accepted.

I haven't come out to Everyone yet, but I hope to meet someone who will make me Shout it to the World!! Friends with benefits no longer works for me, either..........



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Posted on Wed, Dec 03, 2014 19:55

The more I read I am learning I am not alone. I always knew I was gay I just ignored it all my life. I go married had kids.  But couldn't live the lie any longer.  I met someone for a short time. When she kissed me and touched me it all felt so right



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Posted on Sat, Jul 26, 2014 13:17

Hi your storey is much like mine apert from I have never come out and have not had a relationship with a woman .I am wondering if I have left it too late

 



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Posted on Sat, Apr 19, 2014 13:38

Your story is like mingt with the highschool girlfrined and being in love with her but having to be platonic in actions. I have been in a couple of loving lesbian relationships and some have been ore wonderful than others.  I have teenagers and due to my sons homophobia i am still playing the game.  He is just so judgemental at the age of 19.



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Posted on Thu, Feb 06, 2014 02:31

Hi!

Your story is really touching!Great that you finally decide to come out of the closet. I wish you all the best on your new way.I am sure you will find somebody soon.



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