Blog : Sometimes I wonder..

I'm a 18 year old this year and for the past 3 years I've been leading the lesbian life and I'm really happy with my life,cause I'm proud to be myself.
However,my relationship always give me trouble...
I met my gf,J two years ago,we went dating after knowing each other for 5 months.Everything was going smoothly at first,until one day,we found out that her mum hired private investigators to check on us.And our relationship was exposed to both side's parents.I was blamed for turning J into a lesbian and we were forced to break up and we cannot contact each other at all.
However,we still keep in contact secretly.Then there was this day which she went dating with a guy behind my back,I was angry and I decided to break with her,but after sometimes,we got back together again.
From then until now,she went dating with 3 guys.But now,we got back together again.The problem is now,she is planning to go overseas next year for 4 years,and she wanted to become a celebrity(this really pressurize me) and on the other hand,our relationship cannot be exposed.We've already been exposed for two times by her mum,we can't afford to be caught again,because I will cause J to have all her oversea's activities cancelled and she will once again lose her freedom.
But both of us love each other,can anyone tell me what will you do if you are in my shoes?

hey ma...first off dont let parents run your like they should love you no matter what your their daughter. you cant help who you fall in love with. never let anyone run your life the only one who should have a say is yourself. talk to her who cares what you parents say if you both really love each other then thats all that should matter. maybe you should sit both sets of parents down and explain to them its not about gender or anything its about how they make you feel and if more...

hey jus keep ur head up. if u all really love each other, then dont hide it. im going thru the same right now with my girl. we both like each other but i was the one that was afraid to say anything about our relationship. now i came out to my mom and happier than ever. but dont worry , if she loves you, she will find you. love always finds a way remember that

I agree to your suggestion. It certainly may work out that way the true love never hides. I think if the friendship and love is true than it will show up anyways.

Hey there, wow, that's really hard, honestly, the only way you and you're true love can be together is by getting away. Yes easier said then done, but that is the ONLY way she will be able to ever see you. If you two really REALLY love each other the way you say you do, then you can overcome anything. But I think, unfortunately that's the only option, because while she's under her parents roof there is no way you'll be able to see each other. She's being completely controlled. Unfortunately, like I said the only way that you would be able to be together is if she left home indefinitely and started her life.

Sorry, that's the best advice I could give. Good luck, you sound like you really love her, and that's amazing, don't ever loose that feeling no matter what, it's what keeps a person going day by day.

~Suz