Yes. I am very attracted to my lecturer at university and cannot stop thinking about her. In fact, it's quite painful to even think about. She is at least 12 years older than me (not old in any way), is married and has just had a baby, so there is no chance whatsoever in me even confessing. I have no idea how to handle this but it's been killing me for 2 years now and I have another year to go around her. I know there is always a little sparkle in her eye when we speak but I am both praying that it is not and am scared, at the same, that it is just an illusion. Any suggestions? What could I possibly do?